Story of my Life – The Beginning

I’ve been thinking of the 29 years of my existence. My childhood, during highschool and college and now that I am working, and being a new  life as a wife. I have not got the chance to tell stories about me to a lot of people – maybe because I do not have time, or chance, maybe the people in my life right now, would not really care, or maybe they already know. From time to time,I would tell my husband about my childhood, how it is very different from my life now, and how it changed. And how, sometimes, I feel like missing those times  when everything is so difficult yet, I am so happy and hopeful.

I hope this entry marks the beginning of those stories. I want my children to know my childhood, what I do, and hopefully they get something from it. Here I will share bits and pieces of my life, as I remember them. I know I can not bring them back. At least I have this to re-live those memories.

 

 

Year End Thoughts

I will never forget 2013.  It’s a year full of joy, meaning and love. This year tested my courage and my faith.

Last March, I left the place where I worked with the most passionate people I’ve met in my whole career. It is really a pleasure working with these people. You would be ashamed not giving your best. I was heart broken, and crying on my last day.  But I need to set priorities for myself, and for my family. It’s a chance I can not let go. I remember thinking – Lord, is this a blessing or a test? Lord, am I reading this correctly? And honestly, I left without knowing the answer. I hoped I picked up the lesson I needed to learn. I hope I’ve become a better person. And it may seem a no-brainer choice, but really, it was a very difficult one for me. It’s a you can be yourself, you can be happy at little successes, and celebrate the things you think you did good at. You can make mistakes, and learn lessons from it. At the end of a tiring day, you are happy the you contributed something, and that people actually appreciates. It’s a place (at least for me), that you don’t need to please people, but you just need to do your best. At the same time, it’s the place I learned to be more patient, to the things I cannot change, and understand that some things are just the way they are. To be less affected by frustrations, and to understand what really matters. I will forever be grateful to the time I spent there – for the friendship and the lessons.

I got married this year, to this man I never thought I would meet. A blessing I will be thankful for for the rest of my life. More than a partner, he is my best friend – who takes care of me when I am sick, clean the dishes for me, listens, understands, makes me laugh and makes me angry at the same time, who knows me to bits, my frustrations, my fears, who would hug me when I am sad, cook for me when I am hungry, and who knows just when to hold my hand when I needed it.

2013, thank you for the blessings and the learning. They say I am good at planning, I honestly think I am not. I think I just know when to trust, and allow faith to take over. I think we can never really plan anything, we can only prepare for the uncertainty, and what comes with it. 

This year, 2014. My prayer is to be guided all the time. I hope I am making decisions according to His will. I am praying for more patience, for a stronger faith and trust and a heart ready for the purpose it is called to do.

Have a blessed 2014 everyone. 🙂

Last Few Days of 2013

It’s almost Christmas. I am here at the office trying to finish some remaining work loads. I don’t have enough sleep, and really, I am sure not sure how am I going to finish these things before the holidays.

2013 is a life-changing year for me. It’s full of turning points, and decisions. It’s certainly is, one of the busiest years of my life. I am too busy thinking about so many things – work, life, people, future. so many. It’s this moment when I over-think, and I am feeling a little bid worried. I am not worried about the uncertainty, or what the future looks like. It’s actually my “today” that worries me. Am I reading this correctly. Am I supposed to be here. I am just thankful that in the middle of these clutter, one aspect of my life is working perfectly – my heart.

Maybe, I just need to remind myself that everything happens for a reason. They say that, we should not dwell on the past. But thinking about it, I think it’s a good way to understand how things are today, and be reminded again, why am I here. Ok, this is getting serious.

Dear God. You know my prayer.

Trust! Wow! Big Word! – Laida Magtalas

I just remembered this dialogue from – It takes a Man and a Woman Movie. Eto kasi yung tumatak sa utak ko. Haha. And, I agree. TRUST is such a big word. And I experienced it several times, loosing trust to somebody. Mahirap. Actually, kung manually pwede mo ibalik ang trust sa isang tao, bakit hindi. But, the thing is, while bringing back the trust is a decision, it also requires work, and will not happen overnight. Kailangan lang, when you decide to give back your trust, you should be willing to , 100% work on it with all your heart and mind.

Wala lang. 🙂

Some Life Updates

2013 is really a life-changing year for me. For one, I am getting married on October, and just recently, I resigned from work, and will be transferring to a new company. You see, I love Newly Weds! I love the passion of the people there. But I need to think long-term. Honestly, I do not see my self staying there for good. I still have the drive, and I can feel that there are a lot in store for me, but I also know that sooner or later, I will be seeking other opportunities — but I did not expect it will be this soon. If you read my earlier posts, I mentioned about my exam at P&G, and a panel interview at Unilever. I got in at Unilever. I did not expect it at all, since I honestly feel my interview did not went well, but I was offered a challenging job, something I can not turn down – especially coming from a company like Unilever. It was a hard decision, but i feel it’s a blessing. I know it will not going to be easy, but I’m excited to start my work. Would like to share a piece of advise an office mate told me when I told her about this, that i should shine everywhere I go, shine in a good way and always be humble. I am thankful for this blessing, and I’ve been praying for this. And I promise I will do my best. 🙂

On the lighter side of my life, our wedding preparation is still ongoing. I’m being impatient at times. Hehe. I can see that Di is excited too. Few more months hon. ❤